Well part of my new year resolution has been working out pretty well. The other part, let's not get into that. Well my main goal this year as to start to look better, son on January 4th, 2009 I ofically signed up with a gym and it seems like my plan was actually happening. I went to the gym almost everyday, and I did not think my hard work was payign off.
Well now seven months has past and I am now at 220. Of course I want to loose more because I feel like I have made a huge step in the right direction. I now feel a lot better and I can look at myself in a mirror and be happy with the reflection.
Now that this has be achievied I will contuine to do what I'm doing, who knows what will come next. Maybe the other part of my goal my happens, and that could happen any day, hopefully.
Thursday, July 23, 2009
Saturday, July 4, 2009
Things That always make me happy
THIS show makes me SUPER happy. September, October and November are going to be very good months!
Lately I've been thinking....
So lately there has been many things on my mind. Many things that I can simply brush aside and be done with, yet there is one thing that alludes me. The only that is still always on my mind.
What could that be you ask, well if you know me, you may have notice something. Something very odd. What could that be you may ask?
Well, until recently, I have hidden the fact that I've been single for ten years. Its not something to be proud of at all. Normally people my age are working a thing know as marriage and are already having kids.
Not me. I'm still very much single, living a semi good life. Is it where I wanna be? Not at all. I never had dreams of sitting at desk telling people how to fix their cable problems. This is just merely a speed bump in the road of life. Do I see an ending coming on that horizon?
Yes, like everything in the world, my time of sitting at a desk talking to faceless voices will come to a close and a new chapter will clearly begin.
Things like this I can see clearly, but as for finding someone has always been less and less clear. I have dreams that I'm with someone, and I am really happy, but when I awake I find the cold reality sets in. Yet in my dreams it is always the same, I never see the person face, the are unknown, only a faceless, sexless being that is suppose to represent the person that I will be with. I wish I would know who that person was, maybe things would be very easy to figure out.
So I'm stuck, always feeling depressed, as the world spins round, people pair up, I am left matchless. It is a factor that I face everyday, never really able to forget about.
I know that it is a good thing to be able to self sufficient, but you know there is always an aspect of having someone there beside you, riding this crazy ride with you, that just makes the world more complete. Someone who knows you inside and out, and simple does not judge you for it. Someone who will share their life experiences with yours, and you can share a bond that will make the world suddenly seem right.
Over the years I have been told never go looking for, let it happen. Search for it and you'll find it. But of everything I've tried it just seems impossible. When will I fine the so called one? I dunno. Will the stars had to align at just the right moment? I wish I knew. Will it be love at first sight? I high doubt that.
There clearly has to be something that I'm missing. Who knows when I finally figure it all out. But don't you think its rather odd to be single for so long?
Hopefully there will be a day when I won't be thinking about this anymore, when will that day happen? That is the mystery that I'm struggling to find a conclusion too.
What could that be you ask, well if you know me, you may have notice something. Something very odd. What could that be you may ask?
Well, until recently, I have hidden the fact that I've been single for ten years. Its not something to be proud of at all. Normally people my age are working a thing know as marriage and are already having kids.
Not me. I'm still very much single, living a semi good life. Is it where I wanna be? Not at all. I never had dreams of sitting at desk telling people how to fix their cable problems. This is just merely a speed bump in the road of life. Do I see an ending coming on that horizon?
Yes, like everything in the world, my time of sitting at a desk talking to faceless voices will come to a close and a new chapter will clearly begin.
Things like this I can see clearly, but as for finding someone has always been less and less clear. I have dreams that I'm with someone, and I am really happy, but when I awake I find the cold reality sets in. Yet in my dreams it is always the same, I never see the person face, the are unknown, only a faceless, sexless being that is suppose to represent the person that I will be with. I wish I would know who that person was, maybe things would be very easy to figure out.
So I'm stuck, always feeling depressed, as the world spins round, people pair up, I am left matchless. It is a factor that I face everyday, never really able to forget about.
I know that it is a good thing to be able to self sufficient, but you know there is always an aspect of having someone there beside you, riding this crazy ride with you, that just makes the world more complete. Someone who knows you inside and out, and simple does not judge you for it. Someone who will share their life experiences with yours, and you can share a bond that will make the world suddenly seem right.
Over the years I have been told never go looking for, let it happen. Search for it and you'll find it. But of everything I've tried it just seems impossible. When will I fine the so called one? I dunno. Will the stars had to align at just the right moment? I wish I knew. Will it be love at first sight? I high doubt that.
There clearly has to be something that I'm missing. Who knows when I finally figure it all out. But don't you think its rather odd to be single for so long?
Hopefully there will be a day when I won't be thinking about this anymore, when will that day happen? That is the mystery that I'm struggling to find a conclusion too.
Tuesday, June 30, 2009
Quotes that Matter....
For the past few year I have been working on a poetry book, in that book, every know and then I write some quotes that I think really matter, they are special in my life somehow, so now I will share them with you, all whoever read this wonderful blurg! haha
"And we'll make a heaven out of hell..."
"The course of true love never runs smooth.."
"I've looked at love from both side now, and still it's life illusions I recall, I really don't know life at all."
"Let's learn for forgiveness and try to forget.."
"Pity comes to late, turn around and face your fate, and eturnity of THIS before your eyes..."
"I dreamed that my life would be so different than the hell I'm living..."
"One day I'll fly away, leave all this to yesterday..."
"Time marches on and eventually you realize it is marchin' across your face..."
"Come what may, I will love you until my dying day..."
"Somewhere out there some one thinking of me and loving me tonight..."
"I love you and hope your love me..."
"And we'll make a heaven out of hell..."
"The course of true love never runs smooth.."
"I've looked at love from both side now, and still it's life illusions I recall, I really don't know life at all."
"Let's learn for forgiveness and try to forget.."
"Pity comes to late, turn around and face your fate, and eturnity of THIS before your eyes..."
"I dreamed that my life would be so different than the hell I'm living..."
"One day I'll fly away, leave all this to yesterday..."
"Time marches on and eventually you realize it is marchin' across your face..."
"Come what may, I will love you until my dying day..."
"Somewhere out there some one thinking of me and loving me tonight..."
"I love you and hope your love me..."
Monday, June 22, 2009
Thursday, June 18, 2009
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